I must confess.

• I hate the listless feeling of not knowing the next step in life...when will I find a job, will I go to law school or a PhD program, where will I finally settle, who will I make a life with? I just wanna know!
• I'm at peace with all my experiences in Indiana. 
• Research saved my life. 
• I want to go to law school at the University of Michigan
• I think of who my brother and I used to be, best friends. Who we are now isn't even a shadow of our former selves. Good and bad.
• It's time to be a smaller me. #lookbetternaked
• the main reason I like living by myself is because I like to walk around without pants and leave the bathroom door open when I pee
• I spent an hour looking at pictures of black people getting married. I cried the entire time, but not for reasons one might think. I just felt like that's what I should want, and is there something wrong with me that I don't?
• My grandmother PLAYED me. She brought me a 1980's sweatsuit that would've made a swish sound when I walked if I had worn it, when I made a face she side-eye'd me and told me "well it would've been a wedding dress but..." and I just laughed it off. Took it back and brought NARS make-up. #winning
• I'm so confident in certain areas, and others I constantly worry about. I wish this would balance out.
• I'm in love with someone I've never dated, and who doesn't care about me. *shrugs*. I'm trying to get over him to no avail. I've tried the no contact delete from social networks, didn't work. I tried pretending nothing happened, didn't work. I don't know.... 
• I'm trying to be that "power woman" but I have to admit some days I just want to be a housewife. Not because I don't love or want to do the work, but it would be easier socially. #conflicts
• I used to cry when I felt that someone wasn't paying attention to me that I loved. Now I'm so much more secure and don't care to be paid attention all the time. I'm so glad I've grown in that. It used to cause me real anxiety. I know people love me even though their focus isn't on me.
• I wish I was less awkward. I'm not even cute awkward.
• I'm tired of keeping secrets, even my own. I just wanna be me.
• I'm in love with J. Cole's voice.
• I miss my godchildren. 
• I wish people would stop worrying about my uterus. You won't believe how many people talked about my future kids and husband over the holidays. 
• I hate long job applications.
• I have the biggest crush on Mahlon Mitchell for his speaking ability...chile. WHEW! GOOGLE HIM!
• Adele will always sing the song of my life. 
• I have a major crush on Ndamukong Suh, but I really feel like he hits women and slays hoes on the side.
• I spend hours and hours on tumblr and I don't even have one.
• I secretly root for the Detroit Lions. 
• I'm looking forward to the future, only if to know what it looks like. 
• When I get a job I'm getting a new tattoo.